It’s a few days before Christmas and we are in the middle of our first snow here in Kansas. The little munchkin is asleep, hubs is nodding off in his big brown recliner, the fire is burning down, we just finished watching Elf and I’m desperately trying to stay awake to watch SNL with Jimmy Fallon and J.T. (my two very favorite peeps). Here I sit on the couch in my obnoxious, fuzzy Rudolph sweats with a mug of hot chocolate (with little mini marshmallows in them. You must have the mini mallows) just soaking up the quiet nothingness that is going on in our house right now amidst the busy Christmas season. Yes, be jealous, my house is quiet and absent of drama. I live an envious life 🙂

In my attempts to stay up late (for this mama, that’s past 10pm) my mind began shifting to it’s loneliest corners, aka my deepest, darkest secrets. Yes, as a SAHM I have my secrets; the moments that no one else sees, except little Norakins (maybe it’s a good thing she isn’t talking much yet?). This blog has become a great place to express my feelings and thoughts this past year, so why not have it be a confessional board as well? Well then, here we go…full steam ahead and read at your own risk…consider yourself warned.

1. I rarely ever wear a bra when I’m home. I mean ever. And when I do, it’s usually a sports bra. There is quite a bit of buzz about saggage and such, but I chose to believe that this will not happen to me. Plus, I lead a much more comfortable life this way.
2. We eat a lot of leftovers in our house. Sometimes, when I’m sick of eating the same thing for a few days, I open up the container and let Nora smoosh her hands in it just to say that we can’t eat it anymore so I have an excuse to throw it out. No lie.
3. There are some times when the clean clothes sit in the dryer for days before they ever get folded. They normally go through at least 3 cycles of “dewrinkle” just so I don’t have to iron them before folding.
4. I always make sure that Eric calls me on his way home from work, which is usually around 4pm. That way I have enough time to go upstairs, put on some make up and brush through my hair so it looks like I have been put together all day.
5. Sometimes I eat ice cream and M&M’s for lunch with a side of Strawberry Yogurt Cheerios. And I wonder why my body doesn’t magically look more toned.
6. I consider the people of “The Today Show” my dear friends. I feel like Natalie Morales and I could be BFF’s and I cried when Meredith Vieira left the show.
7. I am a closet “Reba” fanatic. During nap time, I get my fill of drama from the Hart family and sometimes find myself talking to Nora in a southern Texas accent.
8. If I need a few minutes of uninterrupted time to stare at the wall or catch up on my blog reading, I give Nora a magazine and let her go to town. It’s a mess to clean up, but we both get what we want out of it.
9. I call my husband 2 or 3 times a day. Sometimes it’s just to have some adult conversation, but most of the time it’s because I genuinely miss him.
10. I kiss my daughter all the time and she gives me the best kisses right back. I will be devastated when she gets “too big” to do this in front of her friends.
11. Sometimes, when Nora stops watching an episode of Sophia the First or Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, I desperately try and keep her attention on the TV or at least occupied until the show is over so I can see what happens. Those Disney Jr. shows suck me right in to their plots.
12. My daughter ALWAYS looks cuter, and is usually cleaner, than me. She is so adorable that it makes it totally worth it.
13. When people stop and comment on how cute Nora is, there are times that I say, “I know, right? I think so, too!” I am not humble about it at all. Of course I know how cute she is, I helped MAKE her!
14. There are some days, most recently, when she is throwing temper tantrums, that all I can do is sit on the couch and cry wondering if I’m ever going to raise an obedient child. I so desperately want her to know right from wrong and be a kind, happy girl.
15. There are also some days, that I can’t wait for it to be 7pm so she will go to bed, but then 30 minutes later, I find myself creeping into her room, leaning over her crib and just staring at her while she sleeps because I miss her so much.
16. I use having a child of my own as an excuse to do holiday crafts.
17. Speaking of holidays, I have never looked forward to a Christmas my whole life more than I do this year. Christmas with a kid is SO MUCH BETTER than anything I ever imagined!

So those are my confessions. I know that you other mama’s out there have your own. I’d love to hear them 🙂